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  <title>alex_beecroft</title>
  <subtitle>Sailing paper boats down the rivers of Elfland</subtitle>
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    <title>Help, I&amp;#8217;m alive!</title>
    <published>2015-03-31T10:47:19Z</published>
    <updated>2015-03-31T10:47:19Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;OK, that&amp;#8217;s maybe not the title I&amp;#8217;d have gone for if I&amp;#8217;d been going for informational value. I just have the song running through my head at the moment. &amp;#8220;Help, I&amp;#8217;m alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer.&amp;#8217; Let me see if I can find it somewhere so you can have it running through your head too.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;span class="embed-youtube" style="text-align:center; display: block;"&gt;&lt;iframe class="youtube-player" type="text/html" width="640" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/ZoK63Bk7pgw?version=3&amp;amp;rel=1&amp;amp;fs=1&amp;amp;showsearch=0&amp;amp;showinfo=1&amp;amp;iv_load_policy=1&amp;amp;wmode=transparent" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen="true"&gt;&lt;/iframe&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;All of which is an enormous aside, because what I mean is &amp;#8216;Help, I&amp;#8217;ve finished the novel I was working on. What should I do next?&amp;#8217;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I really want to write some heroines. This is a problem, given that everything I&amp;#8217;ve ever published is m/m. If I write some heroine led books, where would I publish them? Who would read them? Why on earth would I be even contemplating starting again from scratch when I should really buckle down and concentrate on writing the books I know people want me to write?&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Actually maybe the song is not that inappropriate after all. &amp;#8216;I tremble. They&amp;#8217;re going to eat me alive.&amp;#8217;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Why do I do this to myself? Why can&amp;#8217;t I settle on anything? Oh god, it&amp;#8217;s far more appropriate than I thought, or else it&amp;#8217;s my author&amp;#8217;s mind turning everything into a metaphor, but look &amp;#8211; I&amp;#8217;m such a butterfly. I can&amp;#8217;t stay on one flower very long.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I could try, though. What do you think? Have you got m/m books you badly want me to write? Any suggestions? Or should I go off and write another Lioness book which no one may ever read? And then that one with the squad of Faerie paranormal investigators? And then whatever comes next?&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Speaking of which, I&amp;#8217;m badly in need of someone to beta read &lt;em&gt;Lioness of Cygnus 5&lt;/em&gt; for me. It&amp;#8217;s an all action sci-fi romp in which a hard-bitten female space captain and a cowardly techno-criminal are shipwrecked on a penal planet and have to work together to survive. Anyone fancy reading it and getting back to me with questions and suggestions for how it can be improved?&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;div class="wp_fbl_bottom" style="text-align:right"&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class="wb_fb_comment"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;p style="text-align: right"&gt;&lt;small&gt;Mirrored from &lt;a href="http://alexbeecroft.com/2015/03/help-im-alive/" title="Read Original Post"&gt;Alex Beecroft - Author of Gay Historical and Fantasy Fiction&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/small&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=alex_beecroft&amp;ditemid=253209" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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